MY JOURNEY

IT'S BEEN A WHILE SINCE I'VE WRITTEN SO I WILL WRITE TO YOU A FEW BLURBS. I AM STARTING THE PROCESS OF GETTING STARTED ON FINDING A JOB THROUGH EASTER SEALS SINCE I AM DISABLED AND I HAVEN'T HELD DOWN A JOB SINCE '96. MY EX WOULD NOT LET ME SINCE I WAS MARRIED HE SAID IT WOULD RUIN OUR SOCIAL SECURITY. MADE ME SO MAD. I SURE WISH I COULD HAVE WORKED. IT SURE WOULD HAVE SAVED ALOT OF GRIEF THROUGHOUT OUT MARRIAGE. I THINK HE JUST WANTED TO SPEND OUR MONEY ON THINGS THAT DIDEN'T MATTER TO HIM, LIKE THE GAMBLING THINGS. I THINK WE ALL DO STUFF LIKE THAT. I FIND MYSELF LATELY DOING THAT BY BUYING STUFF AT RESTERAUNTS THAT I CAN'T AFFORD AND I NEED TO DO A LITTLE LESS SPENDING ON THINGS THAT I CAN AFFORD FOR MYSELF LIKE NECCESITIES OF LIFE LIKE FOOD AND CLOTHING. STUFF LIKE THAT. I AM BEGINNING TO GET COMFORTABLE IN MY SURROUNDINGS WHERE I AM AT AS A SINGLE PERSON. I HAVE BEEN SEPERATED A LITTLE OVER A YEAR NOW AND I AM HAPPY ABOUT THE FACT THAT I AM INDEPENDENT.

my Journey

Well here we are again this day! Organizing my life. I don't know much about organizing never done much in the past 20 yearsLol. I am as I said yesterday I am trying to get my life going in a good direction and in a good order. I probably have 7 boxes ready to go to charity already and I kind of feel overwhelmed. I guess I feel overwhelmed because I haven't done this in a long long time. I need to this for my own well being. I need to do this so I can feel as if I have accomplished something. I know I know I have accomplished many things in my life You know one of my best accomplishments in my life was the time I was adopted but that is another part of my story. As I said before I feel very accomplished. One of the things I think I am going to do is going to get a job and maybe go to school we'll see what the Lord wants me to do. I just will see what life leads for me. I was up alot of the night last night just contimplating on the subject and job or scool? Job or school? hmmm we'll see. Decisions decisions.

My Journey

I am sitting here trying to contimplate the future. I tried to figure out if Davis Tech College is for me. I don't feel it is. I need one on one training. I feel as if I need that I think I am going to try out Weber State University and see if they have any math and English classes I can start out with so I can pass of with. I can't remember how to do fractions and I know how to do English, but I don't know how well I will do on the English questions and how hard the questions will be to pass those tests to get in to Weber State there has to be a way that I can go to school. I need to get a career going so I can get a life. My work is coming to an end and I need to find something I can fall back on. I need to bide my time with. I can't just stay around the house and do nothing all day and stay with my cat and keep her company and vs. versa. No Way we'd drive each other insane. Lol. I need a life I need to go somewhere. I need a new direction in life. I need to make the right and proper choices in my life so I can become a better person. I like to get out and make something of my life. I like getting out and doing stuff for other people and that is why I am having a hard time going through this hard struggle of losing my job because of this reconstruciton. I just wish I could keep the job forever. You know as they say all things must come to an end and I guess this time and this journey, this time the Lord want this to come to an end. I am so greatful for my journey here in this life and I am so greatful I have this opportunity to have the blessings of a beutiful world to live in. That's all I have to say for today!