MY JOURNEY

IT'S BEEN A WHILE SINCE I'VE WRITTEN SO I WILL WRITE TO YOU A FEW BLURBS. I AM STARTING THE PROCESS OF GETTING STARTED ON FINDING A JOB THROUGH EASTER SEALS SINCE I AM DISABLED AND I HAVEN'T HELD DOWN A JOB SINCE '96. MY EX WOULD NOT LET ME SINCE I WAS MARRIED HE SAID IT WOULD RUIN OUR SOCIAL SECURITY. MADE ME SO MAD. I SURE WISH I COULD HAVE WORKED. IT SURE WOULD HAVE SAVED ALOT OF GRIEF THROUGHOUT OUT MARRIAGE. I THINK HE JUST WANTED TO SPEND OUR MONEY ON THINGS THAT DIDEN'T MATTER TO HIM, LIKE THE GAMBLING THINGS. I THINK WE ALL DO STUFF LIKE THAT. I FIND MYSELF LATELY DOING THAT BY BUYING STUFF AT RESTERAUNTS THAT I CAN'T AFFORD AND I NEED TO DO A LITTLE LESS SPENDING ON THINGS THAT I CAN AFFORD FOR MYSELF LIKE NECCESITIES OF LIFE LIKE FOOD AND CLOTHING. STUFF LIKE THAT. I AM BEGINNING TO GET COMFORTABLE IN MY SURROUNDINGS WHERE I AM AT AS A SINGLE PERSON. I HAVE BEEN SEPERATED A LITTLE OVER A YEAR NOW AND I AM HAPPY ABOUT THE FACT THAT I AM INDEPENDENT.