SARA'S CONTINUING JOURNEY

WELL I AM MOVING FORWARD I FINISHED THE TEMPLE WORK THE LORD PLANNED FOR ME TO DO. I CAN'T BELIEVE I WORKED IN THE TEMPLE FOR 6 YEARS. WELL GUESS WHAT I AM DOING NOW? I AM A SERVICE MISSIONARY WORKING FOR THE FAMILY HISTORY LIBRARY IN THE DIGITAL PRESERVATION AREA OF ON THE BOTTOM FLOOR OF IN THE BRITISH ISLES SECTION OF THE LIBRARY. SOMETIMES I FIND IT QUITE ENJOYABLE BUT OTHER TIMES I FIND IT QUITE FRUSTRATING. I LOVE THE PEOPLE I WORK WITH THE I WISH I LIKED THE WALKING. MAYBE AFTER A WHILE I WILL GET USED TO IT. HOPEFULLY. NOTHING IS SETTLING WHEN YOU START SOMETHING. IT TAKES SOME TIME TO GET USED TO SOME THINGS SOME THINGS YOU JUST HAVE TO LEARN TO GET USED TO AND I AM JUST LEARNING THE ROPES. WHEN THE ROPE IS RIGHT AT THE BOTTOM I JUST WORK MY WAY TO THE TOP LITTLE BY LITTLE. "WITH GOD NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE!"

My Journey

Well it has been a while since I wrote last and, I have been trying to figure out how to send pictures and things to my blog post. Can't figure out how to do it yet but I will get the hang of this in the mean time I got myself a new phone. I will probably end up paying a fortune on it at the beginning of the month knowing me and knowing the cell phone companies not telling you the inside details of things.

Well it has happened. My job has come volunteer job has come to an end as I knew it would someday. it actually ended this week because I went and cleaned it on Wednesday. Wednesday people were pulling stuff apart and taking things down. Things were just really differen't in the temple because there was not any work to be done there there was nobody to greet you when you came through the doors and the doors diden't automatically open up. Those of you who are non members of the church no one is aloud to go inside unless you are a member of the church and you are worthy of a temple recommend which means you have to meet church standard and be worthy. You have to pay and honest tithe. keep the 10 commandment. Honor and obey the laws. Be truthful and do the good and virtuous things in order to enter the temple. No body off the street can just enter the temple only worthy members of the church. We hold that sacred because it is God's Holy House. I truely believe that. There wasen't any work being done in the Lord's House. It was all quiet. Peace is there.

Here I am with about 2 and a half or 3 weeks left til the temple closes still have no clue what I am in for after the temple closing. My ex- husband wants to continue to date me. I don't know if I want to continue to date him unless he wants a serious relationship with me. I really miss him I do. but I don't miss his bull crap. I just wish he would give up his childishness. I wish I could've given up babying him.

MY JOURNEY

IT'S BEEN A WHILE SINCE I'VE WRITTEN SO I WILL WRITE TO YOU A FEW BLURBS. I AM STARTING THE PROCESS OF GETTING STARTED ON FINDING A JOB THROUGH EASTER SEALS SINCE I AM DISABLED AND I HAVEN'T HELD DOWN A JOB SINCE '96. MY EX WOULD NOT LET ME SINCE I WAS MARRIED HE SAID IT WOULD RUIN OUR SOCIAL SECURITY. MADE ME SO MAD. I SURE WISH I COULD HAVE WORKED. IT SURE WOULD HAVE SAVED ALOT OF GRIEF THROUGHOUT OUT MARRIAGE. I THINK HE JUST WANTED TO SPEND OUR MONEY ON THINGS THAT DIDEN'T MATTER TO HIM, LIKE THE GAMBLING THINGS. I THINK WE ALL DO STUFF LIKE THAT. I FIND MYSELF LATELY DOING THAT BY BUYING STUFF AT RESTERAUNTS THAT I CAN'T AFFORD AND I NEED TO DO A LITTLE LESS SPENDING ON THINGS THAT I CAN AFFORD FOR MYSELF LIKE NECCESITIES OF LIFE LIKE FOOD AND CLOTHING. STUFF LIKE THAT. I AM BEGINNING TO GET COMFORTABLE IN MY SURROUNDINGS WHERE I AM AT AS A SINGLE PERSON. I HAVE BEEN SEPERATED A LITTLE OVER A YEAR NOW AND I AM HAPPY ABOUT THE FACT THAT I AM INDEPENDENT.

my Journey

Well here we are again this day! Organizing my life. I don't know much about organizing never done much in the past 20 yearsLol. I am as I said yesterday I am trying to get my life going in a good direction and in a good order. I probably have 7 boxes ready to go to charity already and I kind of feel overwhelmed. I guess I feel overwhelmed because I haven't done this in a long long time. I need to this for my own well being. I need to do this so I can feel as if I have accomplished something. I know I know I have accomplished many things in my life You know one of my best accomplishments in my life was the time I was adopted but that is another part of my story. As I said before I feel very accomplished. One of the things I think I am going to do is going to get a job and maybe go to school we'll see what the Lord wants me to do. I just will see what life leads for me. I was up alot of the night last night just contimplating on the subject and job or scool? Job or school? hmmm we'll see. Decisions decisions.

My Journey

I am sitting here trying to contimplate the future. I tried to figure out if Davis Tech College is for me. I don't feel it is. I need one on one training. I feel as if I need that I think I am going to try out Weber State University and see if they have any math and English classes I can start out with so I can pass of with. I can't remember how to do fractions and I know how to do English, but I don't know how well I will do on the English questions and how hard the questions will be to pass those tests to get in to Weber State there has to be a way that I can go to school. I need to get a career going so I can get a life. My work is coming to an end and I need to find something I can fall back on. I need to bide my time with. I can't just stay around the house and do nothing all day and stay with my cat and keep her company and vs. versa. No Way we'd drive each other insane. Lol. I need a life I need to go somewhere. I need a new direction in life. I need to make the right and proper choices in my life so I can become a better person. I like to get out and make something of my life. I like getting out and doing stuff for other people and that is why I am having a hard time going through this hard struggle of losing my job because of this reconstruciton. I just wish I could keep the job forever. You know as they say all things must come to an end and I guess this time and this journey, this time the Lord want this to come to an end. I am so greatful for my journey here in this life and I am so greatful I have this opportunity to have the blessings of a beutiful world to live in. That's all I have to say for today!

Blogger

Today I am just sitting here trying to figure out how to do these pictures on my blog spot haven't, figured it out yet since I don't have a computer yet. Oh well I am not going to let it get me down on this nice sunny day. This sunny wintery snowy day! We have one more week of sun then we have a whole week of snow. Isn't that great? I stepped off the bus this morning and I heared something this morning I haden't heard in a while. NOTHING! That was so nice. No cars nothing. AAAhh so nice. Tomorrow I I will be going to an open house at the Davis Applied Tech. College and I am excited about that. So we will see what will happen with that. I guess they offer over 35 career opportunities there. That is very nice to know that. It is also very nice to know that I can stay in the background if I want and not talk to anyone if I don't want to and just look around and just look for myself. Some people like talking up a storm. Well I am not one of those peopl. Thank goodness for that in someways. In someways I wish I was like that. When I was on my mission in Az I used to teach the gospel of Jesus Christ and I had to come out of my shell and teach and preach about our Saviour and what he has done for us and how he gave his life and how he was resurrcted and how he all gave us a way to return to our Heavenly Father

My Journey

Happy that the new year has started. Need to work on things this New Year. I need to write more in my diary. read the scripture, pray always, lose weight, (that is a goal I set every year and last year I accomplished that goal by eating better and exercising more. Lost 30 pounds and I am looking good). I need to spend more time playing with my cat instead of her just lying around the house all day while mommy goes out. Need to make her feel more comfortable. Need to stay away from my ex. because he is not good for my wellbeing if he doesn't stay away from me I might have to put a restraining order out on him and I don't want to do that. I have mental illness and he is not good for my mental health. He says he wants to be with me forever .but I donht want to be with him forever. I wish I would have made a better choice about who I married and who I was going to be with for eternity. I wonder if there is anyone out there for me. I wonder if anybody can put up with me and my mental illness. Steve put up with it for 10 years. I was happy he , but then he said he couldnht put up with it anymore. he would always put me down and say I was out of my head. Well am I out of my head? I think not I am on stable ground and I know that I am going to make progress in this coming year. I need hang out with friends more. I need to realize that they are there for me and that they love me and I can count on them in my times of need and vice versa. They can count on me as being their friend because they are all good people and I am greatful for that. They are members of my church and they call me in my my darkest hours and I know I can rely on them for comfort and compassion. { !ht believe I was married before and it has already been 6 months since I got a divorce. I am still going through the proccess of healing. I hurt alot of the time and I wish that that hurt would go away. I think about it every day. What could I have done better? Could I have done anything to be a better wife? Maybe I could have been a better wife.